Saturday, October 21, 2006
arggghhh... it's so frustrating....
haven been blogging for a long long time... it has been arnd 5 days since i last blogged... i have realli been thinking a lot throughout this few days.. speaking of these few days... i have been sick since last fri.... i have been down with throat infection since last fri... it's a damn sucky thing... wad's worst is that metro is so strict that i cant bring water in... LAME!!!! my mummy was nice to smuggle in water once for me... it was realli very nice of her becos tat day i was realli not feeling well... these few days haven been going well too... first day of school was good but on the second day... it was a disaster... things were very sucky during the end of the day and it realli hurt and strain the bonding in the class... it was actually a lot of pple's fault... cannot pinpoint and say it's whoever's fault... but it's actually quite a few pple... after tat i did something very stoopid and redundant... i dunno why i spent so much time and effort for wad... i actually tried to think of a way to settle it fairly so everyone will be happi... but in the end... pple are more unhappi... so i actually waited 4 hours of my time to do all those with yan qi and we actually wasted our time... i promise myself tat i will nv do such stoopid things again... i wont ever put myself to all these trouble again becos i actually was sick and continued to worsen it by thinking abt this issue... i will not care abt it anymore... den for these few days... i was very troubled and also very doubtful abt many things in my life... this is realli a stressful part of my life... and yesterday during maths tutorial... i find it so so so hard to catch up with all of them... i dunno why mebbe it's my absorbtion level is too too low tat i cant do the questions... i feel so dumb and stoopid tat even the most simple one i dunno how to do... haix... i dunno is it becos of the stress or wad... but i seriously feel that my life sux and i'm more and more doubtful of wad i'm doing... many things tat i'm doing i am doing with hesitation... i'm starting to live my life so wastefully tat i dun even noe wad i'm doing... i feel lyke a useless person... i noe now in class mebbe i will have some pple who are starting to dislike me becos of the way i'm doing things... haix... hope wad i am doing will please some pple ba... these few days have been such a dumb and sad day... i have been keep thinking abt the song bad day... i realli suddenly feel so alike to the song... realli hope tat someone will stand by me and also go thru this with me... haix... realli feel so tired tired and more tired... it's just frustrating.... haix.. will stop here... take carex...
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