Saturday, November 25, 2006
arghhhhh... i'm so so tired and so so lethargic.... it's so so stoopid... i'm so dumb tired la... now to think of wad i've been doing was realli so so stoopid of mi... i realli regretting doing so much for you... i cared for you and helped you along and did as much as i can... you just sit thr and take things for granted... wad do you think i am... your maid or wad??? i dun owe you anything okaes.... bloody fool.... after all i've helped you, you dun learn yr lesson... still trying to throw everything to mi to do... you think wad... i'm onli a member... dun treat mi lyke your personal assistant cos i'm not and i will never be yours... you fking idiot....
i have been so so so tired... i dunno why... it could be becos of my personal issues but i think that does not sum it all up... it's actually part of it onli... seriously saying i think it's all the dumb stoopid and lame projects and works tat i realli cannot take it anymore... i'm realli burdened with all these projs and also assignments that i cant breathe... i need a breather... i got so many projs that it's getting out of hand... everything needs progress but i dun think there's any now.... it's realli frustrating... wad's worst is i have to be my own leader in my proj and i gotta help some pple to lead their projs and help them to coordinate... wad am i?? a substitution tat you wanna use den you find mi izit... pls... i'm just trying to help... not gonna do everything for you... so take control of your own things... stop pushing it to mi....
i'm so frustrated and angry with everything and also so freaking disappointed in myself that i may have judge a person wrongly... i shldn't have helped him so much and wasted my efforts... i'm such a stoopid stoopid fool to be the good person to help that someone that is not repentant... i shldn't have done so... shld have leave him in a lurch... culd be a better solution and wont end up lyke tat... cant blame anyone but myself for being too busybody and also too ambitious to wanna help someone who wont change himself... i'm such a bloody fool... haix... fking angry and tired of all these nonsense... dunno why i must bear with it while i got other problems and things to be thinking or worrying abt... haix... so sucky and i feel lyke i'm cheated.... shldn't have been the good guy... good guys are always taken advantage of and always gonna be bullied... i just feel tat i'm not justified for my actions and always not given credit... dunno why pple can just ignore things and can say we'll do wadeva is needed to hand in on the day when we're gonna hand in.... so irresponsible and outright shameful... dunno why pple can be lyke tat... i just feel so so fk up with these type of pple... so so so fking angry with that person... i hope he will be able to change cos i will start to let go and stop being yr crutch... you gotta learn how to walk by yourself.....
life has been bad for mi... one of my persisting prob is still not solved and also my current studies are a little jialat becos i'm weak in my studies and many many things i'm very blur and still cannot catch up... hope everything will go well and i will be able to catch up and also do well... haix... said enuff le... hope my marketing assignment can be handed in on monday... pray for mi kaes.....=)
