Sunday, November 19, 2006
this few days have been realli sucky and hard to bear and go thru... i realli dunno why but i realli feel so so tired and upset by many things... i have realli been very easy-go-lucky until nowadays when somethings started to go haywire... my life has been good until these 2 weeks... i dunno why... i dunno wad went wrong... mebbe it could be my fault ba... i have been too much and too kaypoh and too demanding... mebbe i have made a wrong move and been too fast-paced and also too eager... haix...
i have been thinking a lot... i have been having sleepless nights... becos i have too many things in my mind... i also dunno why... cos i'm too free ba... nothing to do den go think of all the stoopid things... i realli think that i'm realli very fan and irritating... i realli think mebbe i'm a bad person... pple shld not be close to mi at all... i'm always bugging pple and also troubling pple ba... and also giving pple lots of stress.... think it's all my fault and i deserve all these for wad's happening now... i dunno wad will end out of that thing but if it ends out negatively... i think i can onli blame myself for being a LOSER and also a FAILURE ba... i'm just a L & F ba.... haix... dunno why but think i'm such a useless person... in everything i do i always dun get to do it my way but everytime i will cause it to go the other way... mebbe it's my fate that in terms of this matter... i will never ever get wad i wan ba... haix... i realli think tat i'm fated to never ever gonna succed... not tat i'm pessimistic but haix... dunno how to say... think i stop spoiling everyone's mood le ba...
todae... i actually went out in the morning to play basketball with clement and went for breakfast with him also... den went home to bath den actually went to bishan with him and esther... den we went shopping thr... i actually got a notebook for writing some notes from there... den actually wanna shop for clothes den in the end nv go... den actually we went for lunch and i had duck rice and den went to arcarde to play for a while... den we went back to the library den chop one cubicle at one corner... den we had our proj meeting over thr... i was realli very lost todae but had to act a bit... cos i dunn wanna spoil their mood.. sorry guys... den after meeting actually wanna go plaza singapura but in the end went to the marina and suntec... saw a very nice sweater but no money to buy... haix... realli lyke that... and i actually wanna more things but got no money... sad case ba... den actually had fish and co for dinner... i always never go against my stomach... dunno why... always spend money on food but i haven pampered myself for very long le... below are some pics... think tat's all for update... becos i am realli realli not in the mood to tok abt anything le... realli realli in the lowest morale.... sorry everyone....
This is a pic of me eating the teeth sweet in the library...
picture of my finished seafood platter for one... hee...
