Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Here i am to deliver my latest post.... On saturday night... went to samuel's hse to do proj and we reached thr arnd 12 plus... becos we ate dinner and waited for kor.... den we actually played at the playground thr.... den after went to his home when kor came and find us... den we actually went thr at arnd 12 plus... den we settled in and at arnd 1 plus we starteing to eat some tidbits and start to do somethings... den esther went to bath den i use her com... den we continue to do our individual stuffs.... den i did my marketing stuffs and they did their research on the java thingy... so we slowly did until lyke wad was 4am... den we actually chat online, played a bit of games, watch some clips and also slack.... den at arnd 6 plus... kor start to fall asleep... den we also were very tired... den we at arnd 6.45... we went to the sofa thr and esther slept on the sofa and kor slept on the floor... i also felt quite drowzy and tired so i slept next to kor.... den we actually fall asleep and woke up arnd 8.30... so damn tired den.... den samuel's mum cooked some bacon while his maid cooked us sausages and eggs... it was so nice for breakfast... den kor bathed and esther made her hair... we went home after that... den at night i did our marketing report... den ystd... we had our presentation... my grp met up at 8am... to do.... but wad the tcher said was that ours was not well done and things lyke tat... i was realli disappointed and sad... but den miss brenda felt lyke i was angry... wahaha... i weren't... just a little downcast... den we went to ang mo kio and den ate thr and went to ang mo kio hub.... lol... den we went back for DCN but it was so so dumb... becos the lecturer say it was a revision lecture and if we're not interested or are already sure can go home... it was lyke WTF la.... haix... den i came home after that.... as for today... i didn't go to sch becos it was quite boring... so i didn't attend... den i stayed home lorx... i didn't realise that many of us didn't go also... i onli knew that est, yan qi, samantha and mi didn't go... the rest i am not very sure... haha... why i didn't go was sort of becos i was tired ba... tired of many things.... also a lot of stress... so i was not very keen to go school todae... den i have been feeling so so so sad and upset over many stuffs and also doubting many things including myself... i also start to think too much and also start to suspect many stoopid stuffs... haix... think i realli think too much... i always do... haix... i reali was very depressed this one week or two weeks.. i didn't slp well and also rest well... i also dunno why... mebbe things have not been going well for mi ba... think i shld start to let things go and not clinging on them... haix... mebbe breaking down could be the most easy way of letting it go and also allow myself a break from everything ba... i think i wont be confiding in anyone becos i dun realli wanna trouble anyone or worst... burden them with my stuffs... but i realli hope to say it out but i think mebbe it's time i shld just tok it out ba.. i hope someone would tok to mi so i can open up ba... hope such a person will come soon....*Have you ever loved somebody so much It makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad You can't sleep at night? Have you ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right? Have you ever? *
