Sunday, February 25, 2007
hmmm.... here i am when i nid to be studying for my exams... things are going thru my mind.... am not in the mood to study at all... dunno why... mebbe becos my mind has been exhausted from everything that has happen... have no idea why all these things are happening.... i actually promised someone that i will live my life happily and stop being unhappy... but i just cant do so... i also promise someone to stop thinking so much.. but i cant.... haix... just dunno why all these are happening... Just a few days ago... something happen.... quarreled with someone close to mi... i didn't noe the severeness of this issue till he actually wanted to severe ties with me... i was damn shocked and damn sad and broken... becos i actually treated the person lyke someone so so close to mi tat such things will not happen.. but it happened... i dun blame the person... all i blame is MYSELF.... my stoopid mouth that said those things w/o thinking tat caused it... i'm so so sorry... so so sorry... i am so sorry that i've hurt you with those words... i noe i've let you down and i dun deserve your forgiveness... all i ask is a chance to admend my mistakes... pls dun severe the tie with mi.... pls... i dun wish to end that relationship with you lyke tat... we're close as brothers but now... as much as strangers... and i ruined it all with my bare hands... bloody stoopid fool i am... i teared that night before i slept and i didn't sleep well... i was thinking abt this whole thing and thus not being able to sleep... i am so so sorry and i can onli blame myself for ruin this whole relation with you and all i did it alone... wad a fuking idiot i am... all becos of my carelessness of words... i actually damaged everything.... i noe sorry cant change anything... but i'm realli sorry... i'm am so so remorseful over it and i realli dunno wad i can stilll do to change this whole situation over... just hope you can give mi a chance.... life.... wad is life... everything has become so lifeless when i actually ruined a relationship with someone that i actually cared for and also someone that meant a whole lot to me... this is just sheer stoopidity of me to do it... i dunno wad i can say but just i'm realli realli sorry... hope for a chance to repent and amend for my wrong doings towards you...* Will you give me that CHANCE???*=i'm so so SORRY.... hope you will be able to forgive me and acknowledge me back...=
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
heh heh... todays is the fourth day of the lunar new year... let mi tell you guys how i spent my these few days.. on the eve of CNY, was stuck at home with grand-ma's praying and all the normal routine.... den baked my cookies str8 after that and was late to go to koko's hse so in the end didn't help much... den ate steamboat at thr... was so fun becos got a lot of stuffs to eat... lyke abalone, veg, fishball, hotdog and many other things... den played with my nieces and nephew... haha.... they are damn damn adorable la... haha... First day.... woke up at arnd 9am... den bath and everything... den went to koko's hse lyke usual and sat thr till abt 10plus... den came home and went to my neighbour's hse... den my relatives came one by one... and by 12pm... thr was lyke abt 4-5 families in my hse... so so lively and also compact... den we went to pray to my dad's side's lao ma(grand-ma's mum).... den after tat went to dad's punggol lao kim thr... den after that went to another lao sim thr.... all so boring de... den came back... den we set up the mahjong table and we started playing... we played from abt 3/4 plus till abt at night.... haha....Second day... woke up arnd 9.15am... den prepare and everything until 9.45 den went to mum's side gong gong(mum's dad)'s place.... den met up with the whole bunch of families thr... den after that went to lao ma's place... den after tat went to lao ko's place... den came my hse for lunch... den saw irene and thomas on the bus... den from my hse went to my 3rd aunt's hse for dinner... but played mahjong first... den ate steamboat again... this time got abalone, veg, fishballs and also BIG BIG Prawn!!!! and many etc... den went to play gerami and den played mahjong till abt 11 plus den we went home.... den i went to sleep... Third day... woke up at arnd 10 den bath and everything... den 11.15 took the van and went to doreen and brother's place... den had praise, video and eating... ate KFC thr and also many other goodies... den was quite fun to see some pple i long long time nv see le... haha... den after tat at arnd 2 plus... went to gan-ma(ping-ma)'s place with rachel.... sat thr from 3 plus till abt 5.30 den left for my hse... haha.... den at my hse we had dinner and after that played mahjong again... haha... and i kenna one round that is getting 7 our of 8 flowers ... and rachel drew the last flower and had to give mi and let mi win... wahaha... nv so lucky before... haha.. so realli nv lose much.... Fourth day(todae)... woke up at arnd 8.45... earliest of these 4 days... den as usual, bath and everything until arnd almost 9.45 went to amk hub.... reached thr arnd 10.40am... den met up with samantha, michelle, clement, isaac, samuel, ryan, xun hang, yi xian.... den we went to take bus to 4 thong soon green thr... which is mrs priscilla's hse... den yan qi cabbed thr and kor also cabbed thr.... den we had lunch which is spagetti with jiao zi... den we played cards to eat grapes, kai xin guo.... everyone had a chance to be banker... lol... den we after that played show-hand with kor... and in the end kor lost... haha.... has to eat abt 60 kai xin guo... lol.... so funny... i help him open and also pour drink for him to drink.... haha.... so so cartoon... before we left we took a picture... haha... tmr is maths paper alr.. haix... may God bless mi le... gtg study le... buaiz!!!! *happi new year EVERYONE!!!*
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
suddenly thot of changing a song... so i went to find this song... this is called i'll never loved this way again....sang by vonzell solomon but original singer: dianne warwick.... i realli believe that this song suits mi a lot and realli bring out the best in mi....tomorrow is valentine's day le... i realli just hope that you two will find the ONE and sepnd this day with them....i dunno but i believe that i'm a person tat will not find my ONE le ba... failed a few times...Think i'm scared liao le... haha...i think lyke this song says... " i'll never love this way again" ba....haix... think falling in love would be a difficult thing le.... *I know I'll never love this way again,so I keep holdin' on before the good is gone.I know I'll never love this way again,hold on, hold on, hold on.*=izit so difficult to find someone who reciprocates my love?????=
Thursday, February 08, 2007
hi everyone who have been reading my blog... sorry for not updating for a long long time... haha... had been up to some fun... so now i'm updating abt wad happened... on mon(5th feb).... we actually had our last presentation and it was damn damn demoralising but i wont tok abt it becos i dun feel lyke to tok abt it... den after tat we proceeded to Sumo House for our lunch... den some of them went to play pool while the rest of us tat includes yan qi, samantha, esther, clement, yi ming and myself... the few of us went to jubilee's arcade as it's cheaper and so we played many things thr lyke DDR, para para, mario car racing, bashi bashi and more... den after tat we went back to the pool place and played more para para... lol.... den after tat den we went home... i reached home arnd 6 plus... wahaha... was so so tired... so the next day i didn;t attend the maths lec cos i was damn tired... but as early as 10am i got awoken by that stoopid lao ping pong... becos she ask mi to hand in my DCN assignment... TMD.... den call mi at least got 4-5 times.... so troublesome... den after tat...
i actually went to marina square to meet yan qi and samantha to buy those february babies' presents.... den we bought a roxy cap for si hui, a bag for didi, a bag for chu jun, 2 shirts 1 for ryan and 1 for samuel... den samantha went to distract si hui and mi and yan qi quickly went to marina bay to meet the rest of them... den went to the Zhen Fa steamboat thr and waited for them to come... den when si hui came she was shocked to see all of us thr.. wahaha... it was so fun... den we ate and ate until arnd 8 plus.... i suddenly saw a familiar face... i saw my pri sch friend jeremy with his frends... haha... den we chatted for a while...
den at arnd 9 plus... we lighted all the candles on the cake and sang the song for them... so as usual we did the normal routine of asking them to eat the cake... den si hui was first... so when she was eating... i pushed her head down into the cake and she actually backfired me and i also kenna the cake on my face, arm and also my shirt a little... haha... but it was fun... den the rest continued to played with the cake... den after tat we went to the bowling alley thr to play... it was a damn hilarious sight.... and i came out third... haha...
den after tat... onli 7 of us proceeded to clarke quay but ryan had to leave so in the end, me, xun hang, michelle, yan qi, samantha and sihui went to the 80s bar to drink.. and before that... we actually sang a birhtday song to si hui at the traffic light.... it was so so fun... den it was my first time drinking a whole bottle of beer... haha... it was okaes... tat was it for this week ba.. wahaha...
Sunday, February 04, 2007
oh my.... it's 4.30 in the morning and i'm not asleep...it's not i dun wan but i got no choice but to stay awake to do my proj.... haix... feeling tired but cant slp... just damn sleepy and irritated... cos my back is damn painful la... it has been lyke 3 days... and i dunno why... my lower back and spinal area is damn damn painful... dunno why... but since thursday night till now... realli very frustrated and red-up... sitting arnd with a damn cushion behind my back.. now at samuel's hse...so boring... dun feel lyke doing java le... my mind is starting to blank out le and i'm damn tired and feeling pain... wtf.... they all ask mi go see doc... haix... not i dun wan... i have my reasons de..... sorry guys... today help mama with the kneading of the dumb dough for the pineaple tart... it was realli very taxing... my back was aching and i was not realli feeling well but mama is the onli one at home...so i have to help to lighten her load.... haix... now i'm feeling damn sleepy.... samuel is asleep and the 3 ofus are fighting against the zzz monster.. wahaha... may God bless us all ba...wahaha....
