Sunday, February 25, 2007
hmmm.... here i am when i nid to be studying for my exams... things are going thru my mind.... am not in the mood to study at all... dunno why... mebbe becos my mind has been exhausted from everything that has happen... have no idea why all these things are happening.... i actually promised someone that i will live my life happily and stop being unhappy... but i just cant do so... i also promise someone to stop thinking so much.. but i cant.... haix... just dunno why all these are happening... Just a few days ago... something happen.... quarreled with someone close to mi... i didn't noe the severeness of this issue till he actually wanted to severe ties with me... i was damn shocked and damn sad and broken... becos i actually treated the person lyke someone so so close to mi tat such things will not happen.. but it happened... i dun blame the person... all i blame is MYSELF.... my stoopid mouth that said those things w/o thinking tat caused it... i'm so so sorry... so so sorry... i am so sorry that i've hurt you with those words... i noe i've let you down and i dun deserve your forgiveness... all i ask is a chance to admend my mistakes... pls dun severe the tie with mi.... pls... i dun wish to end that relationship with you lyke tat... we're close as brothers but now... as much as strangers... and i ruined it all with my bare hands... bloody stoopid fool i am... i teared that night before i slept and i didn't sleep well... i was thinking abt this whole thing and thus not being able to sleep... i am so so sorry and i can onli blame myself for ruin this whole relation with you and all i did it alone... wad a fuking idiot i am... all becos of my carelessness of words... i actually damaged everything.... i noe sorry cant change anything... but i'm realli sorry... i'm am so so remorseful over it and i realli dunno wad i can stilll do to change this whole situation over... just hope you can give mi a chance.... life.... wad is life... everything has become so lifeless when i actually ruined a relationship with someone that i actually cared for and also someone that meant a whole lot to me... this is just sheer stoopidity of me to do it... i dunno wad i can say but just i'm realli realli sorry... hope for a chance to repent and amend for my wrong doings towards you...* Will you give me that CHANCE???*=i'm so so SORRY.... hope you will be able to forgive me and acknowledge me back...=
