Thursday, August 02, 2007
ARRGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why are the pple arnd me not happy?? i'm very very burdened by it!!! i wan the pple arnd me to stay happi and they to be smiling and cheerful... i just wan this simple thing!!!! is it so so so difficult?? i realli dunno why it's lyke so difficult... i wan to make pple arnd me and pple close to me to be happy but why everytime i cant... pple keep saying: i must mind my own business or nicely out="be nicer to myself and care less abt others...."..... BUT!!!!!
i cant!!! my character is to care for pple more den myself... i learn that from young.... ALWAYS GIVING AT PERSONAL EXPENSE!!!! AGAPE LOVE.... it doesn't apply to my church onli but i apply to pple arnd me... BUT when i see pple arnd me not happy or stress or sad... it makes me super sad!!! it also makes me feel that i haven done enough to make pple arnd me to be happy!!! i'm realli realli a failure... i'm realli realli very concern abt pple arnd me!!!! ARRRGGHHHH!!!!
*To Jonathan Kong: Hey bro... sorry... i cant help u in ur situation but no matter wad.... u will always have us(ETU) to support u and be with u always!!! JIAYOU!!!! ~Cheers!!!~*To ETUers: Sorry guys... have been busy with my own proj that i sort of neglected u guys and also spend lesser time with u all... REALLI SORRY!!!! hope u guys are surviving well and can find me in no matter wad questions.... JIAYOU!!!!
*To IT0608-ians: Sorry guys that recently everything is very tense and also very panicky becos presentation is coming.... hope u guys can relax and we'll all do fine.... JIAYOU guys!!! we will make it de!!!!*To HER: i'm realli sorry that i've spend lesser time wif u cos of my busy schoolwork and proj.... realli realli sorry... make u feel lyke neglected but i DIDNT!!!! pls dun feel neglected cos i didn't neglect u.... pls forgive me kaes... i will make up for it after my proj is fully done...*To James: pls dun be so stress kaes!!!! everything will turn out fine... just dun be too harsh on urself and also pls have more confidence in yourself that u are doing wad u can... just be urself... follow ur heart and u will not have any regrets le!!!! if u got any problem or wad u dun mind sharing with me... u can just call me or sms me and i can share your problem... if can i will give u advices and also be with u till u are finished with the prob... JIAYOU BRO!!!!
*To Lai xing n Larry: hey boys... pls dun be so stress kaes... anything just take a break and u will be able to go further in this journey... must be prepared for hardship kaes... anything u all can call or sms me and talk de... if can i will help u guys find solution but if cannot i can share the prob wit u... JIAYOU boys!!!!
*To Raymond: hey... dun be so stress kaes... must be cheerful and continue to keep the smile u always have kaes.... ur smile realli make me feel that my effort in u are not wasted... continue to stay happi and have more self-confidence kaes!!!! BROS 4eva!!!!*To my GROUP(yan qi, esther n zi gui): Hey guys.... i noe it's the time that whether we make it or break it is near le... so we all just do our best and go all the way out kaes... dun have to think too much... we just do wad we can... believe we can do it de... i'm realli sorry at time that i always ask u all to help me in debugging becos i'm not very good in my studies... and i always make it lyke i'm playing too much in proj... realli sorry... JIAYOU... WE CAN MAKE IT!!!!!*To all who visit my blog: Please continue to visit my blog and continue to stay happi... becos i wan pple arnd me to be happi.... dun ever be sad becos i'm always thr for you all... anything just give me a call or sms... i will be thr to lift ur spirit and make u happi de... =STAY CHEERFUL!!=this is wad i feel:
sometimes i realli dunno how i shld feel and react...
u're someone who means a whole lot to me...
even more den others...not comparing HER...
u are someone i value SO SO MUCH...
sometimes i realli realli feel so so HURT and also SAD....
i treat u the best and i realli made it an effort to help u to the fullest...
sometimes u do acknowledge it and make me feel very good...
but u sometimes give me an attitude that tells me that i'm too busybody...
sometimes i feel that mebbe i shldn't have cared so much or say so much...
BUT I CANT!!! U REALLI MEAN A LOT TO ME!!!!
why i feel hurt is becos u treat me lyke an object...
when i do something useful for u...
u treat me nice...but when it's after that...
i feel lyke a garbage treated by u....
BUT everytime i hide my feelings and bear with my wound and go on wif life...
i always act lyke nothing happens but everytime i tok to u i feeeel so so sad and hurt
but i have to act as if i'm not... and be thick-skinned....
i'm realli realli at my wits end... dunno wad shld i do...
BUT think according to my character...
i will continue to be thick-skinned and continue to hide my feelings and wound and also continue to act as if nothing happens...
Just needed to get it out!!!![...<_kelvin_>...]
=====Always the kel u guys noe!!!!=====
haha... now i am doing my java practical... haha... now blogging cos it's done alr... hehe....
Today came to sch late cos was super super tired... so didn't meet my ETUers for breakfast.... very very SORRY!!!! den met esther on bus... met ym at the bus-stop and also yanqi at the discussion room.... den started doing proj.... after doing alr... do a little on OOADPJ!!!! i am realli realli very very du lan and angry when tok abt this.... SUPER DU LAN!!! cos i actually did my proj... just that the stoopid little validation cannot work... i very sian alr... den some ah-hem came to help me... thinking he is very pro i ask him help me debug.... I WAS LYKE WTF when he shouted that my program was wrong and my codings all wrong.... he actually asked me to redo when the deadline is tmr or mon... i was super super F****** pissed sia... den i managed to revert the thing back to wad i did b4 den change a little bit to make it more logical... i was lyke TMD!!!! supposedly can work become cannot.... REALLI SUPER FED-UP!!!! den realli sian... finally i can heave a sigh of relief becos now sort of can work le....
*To that DUM IDIOT!!! = IF U CANNOT DO, JUST SAY!!! DUN GE KIANG AND DEN MESS MY CODES DEN TELL ME MY CODES ALL WRONG!!!! U GO DIE BA!!!!=*To Miss WONG SK: you're realli very very nice... thanks for explaning to me the codes and teaching me how to do!!!!
YAY!!! I CHOSE .NET and POA!!!! Hope can get in for BOTH!!!!!
hey hey.... i just took this test so come on everyone.... DO THE TEST!!!!
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspxMy results are as per follow....
Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
