Sunday, September 23, 2007
i'm back to blog again... have been having a very tiring week... things have been going okaes lorx... this week my results have been released... realli thanks my wonderful God for blessing me with wonderful results... think it's the best in the 3 semesters... haha... den had work this week for all 6 days... realli quite tiring and stressful... life has been realli tough and realli bad ba... dunno why but i always will use something to spur me on to keep continue to strive on in my work and also to keep training myself to not be lazy... but recently this energy is gone le.. due to some defaults i cannot use this strength le cos it seems lyke it's disappearing slowly... and suddenly realise lyke so so lonely becos those that i cared for so much are lyke drifting away from me and leaving me alone... seems lyke i'm the most detestable person... so everyone's lyke treating me lyke an infection... haha... think tat's what i shld describe myself as... today... woke up lyke normal going to work... think i'm going crazy... den went back to sleep... didn't wanna go with mum and dad to my neighbour's baby's full month... went out alone to parkway and east coast park... didn't noe why but had a feeling wanna go thr to take a stroll... went thr took a stroll and walk arnd... realli bring back many memories... i actually went to the shop that the few of us rented our blades and went to roller blade... from dunno try and learn until noe... realli realli enjoyed then when we all had no problem with each other and den had no worries and just played... it was realli fun... den i went to the bowling alley... it also brought back memories and even made my heart ache that i wanna play bowling with the few of them again... haix... den went to the arcade and walk a few rounds den walk to the park and den stroll and feel so so lost... dunno why but like got no aim or something and no direction... totally lost in everything... i realli dunno wad's wrong with me... i lyke keep making wrong choices now and making wrong decisions.... realli think my life is a waste to continue....i think i'm an extra person that is living now... dun think i shld exist... since lyke my presence and existence is not important or my existence seems with or without also makes no diff... think it's time for me to think hard abt my life....
