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Name/Nickname: Kelvin @Kelv
@Kelx @ah_kel
@Kev @Dashu @kelkel
D.O.B:8/5/1988
aGe:20
Schooling at:NYP[diploma in information technology!!!!]

=my Loves!!!=
`GOd
`FamiLy
`fRendz
`polite pple
`IT0608[hedonists]
`IT0710[ETU-ers]
`Mcspicylovers

=my Hates!!!=
`Lyres
`cheaTers
`irritAting ppLe
`hypocritEs
`pple who kup
my calls
`pple with no manners
`pple who doesn't contributes
and wait for free lunch
`pple who criticise but they
themselves are WEAK and also USELESS!!!!!

=WISH-LIST=
`mOrE new cLoThEs
`Everlast jacket
`Fossil watch
`More top man jersey
`New lappie(Sony Vaio)
`Samsung K3
`A special someONE
`New fitting jeans
`Leather Bag
`New Bed
`New Sony Ericsson Phone: C902
`A Special Ring
`New Shoes
`Havaianas slipper
`NUM party tank
`berms from messy's short series
`crocs hp holder[croc o dial]
`billabong bag

=Sec Skool=
`Daniel
`Weikiat
`Kenneth
`Racheal
`Junwei
=Church=
`Darren
`Pearline
`Kevin
`Stephanie
`Joel
`Weeching
`Kiansiong
`Emily
=IT0608=
`Yanqi
`Clement
`Yati
`Esther
*RAYMOND*
`Xinxian
`IT0608
`Yiming
`Zigui
=Comex Fair=
`Edwin
`Laimun
=IT0710=
`Charlene
`James
`Eileen
`Danielle
=OGL=
`Jewelry
`Jonathan
=FYPJ friends=
*JUSTIN*
`Xueli
`Maymay
`Gladys
`3 Superstars
=Family=
`Veron
`Francis
`Cynthia
=lovelove=
`MCSPICYLOVERS
=Celebrities i like=
`Felicia Chin
`Nat Ho
`Ben
`Diya
`Daren

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arlow everyone... i'm very glad to be able to blog abt my life again... as of yesterday... it is already my 4th week at DSTA Tower B for attachment... i'm realli very glad to be able to be dispatched to there... the people thr are realli very nice... i realli enjoy it... even though there may be times i'm not happy thr but thr are more things that will over cover the bad things... there are many many things... i'm slowly getting more and more tired but the joy and satisfaction is also getting more and higher...

Gordon(lao da) is on a 2 weeks course... realli missing the times we bug him abt probs we face and all the jokes we share... hope he come back soon...

i'm realli glad to be able to spend 3 months with many pple lyke yanqi, billy, may, justin, annie, gordon, louis, jordan, mingleong, young, sony, chris and many others... i'm realli sad to noe that young is leaving soon... i may not talk to him much but i'm realli sad he's going... i'm realli going to miss this place badly after 3 months... the pple here will make me miss this place very much...

have been getting a 3 for grading for 3 weeks... was realli demoralised as the rest got 4s and 5s but me and yanqi onli got 3s... so after mastering our courage... ystd me and yanqi went to ask sony(my boss) abt it... and we went with a few fears... in the end it turns out the way i didn't expect as he says he wans to see consistency before increasing the grade... he also said he was happy with wad we've done... he also complimented us that he is glad tat even though lots of tasks are given to us but we dun appear that we're overwhelmed by it and we can deliver almost all or actually all the tasks.... i'm realli surprised and very very happy to hear that...

so now i'm more determined to work harder to get a 5 from him and that will mean that i'm acheiving my personal best le... hehe... JIAYOU!!!! haha... this week mostly went out with annie for lunch as her hubby is not in s'pore so she gotta drive... ystd went to vivo and went for lunch for 2 hrs... but it was not for fun but for work cos we went with annie to buy stuffs the office need... so it's not realli went to slack... haha...

i am glad and am recooperating for next week's work.. will be rechardged and go all the way!!!

i just changed my blog song and my blog skin... and this song is one of my fav now... hehe... hope u guys lyke it too...

*letting go is also another way
of loving someone
it may be the best way out
for all parties!!!*

ArLow!!!! i'm here to blog again... this time blogging with a unhappy mood again.... this time is realli OVER IT le... everything is over... actually it shld be over long ago.... think it was my own Wishful Thinking bah... always thot that things could be back to what they were and always thought... as long as i persevere.... it would work out in the end... but i was wrong... TOTALLY WRONG!!!!

haix... seriously... i realli think it was realli so naive of me to think it the way i thot... i always thot hard-work will pay off... but sometimes... it WONT.... so this time i'm realli defeated le... i realli got nothing to say but blame it on my own wishful thinking bah....

today realli wasn't in the mood... for morning and early afternoon i had a little bit of diarrhoea... was very uncomfortable... den didn't wanna stay home... so i went out alone... and i went to watch RULE #1 alone... yes... u didn't read wrongly... i went ALONE!!!!

dunno wad went into my head to do that but i was mebbe realli uncertain of wad to do that's why i needed some alone time with myself to think abt some stuffs... so went out alone... was realli so blur and pre-occupied that i actually sat in the wrong seat... was so embarrassing.... haix...

i realli dunno wad's wrong with me... isn't it just another time... why i seem so so LOST... i dunno why... mebbe it's becos i'm a bad person and i have bad character and bad temper that's why this is the 2nd time le... mebbe i'm not destine to get "that"...

i realli dunno why this happen... but to that person... all i can say is Sorry and Thank u... Sorry for all the things that i've done wrong and Thank u for the experience and all the best in everything...

All i can do now is Dream, Dream, Dream...
cos i realli cant Don't Cry Out Loud....
i realli did believe... i realli I Believe...
but it turns out to be All I Never Wanted....

hey guys... i'm back now from work... i'm realli tired and realli sian... these few weeks have been realli sian... cos everyday i have been doing work that is getting more in-depth den every week... i'm realli tired and stress... everyday morning i'll meet yanqi n den meet may, billy and justin at redhill... den we'll go to work and den meet for lunch again and den go home.... seriously i'm realli enjoying this life... haha...

everyday learning new things from different pple lyke from my lao da(gordon), jordan, ming leong and hopefully from louis and the rest of the peeps... i realli hope to learn things that is useful from here as i already am doing now... i think it's realli useful... ystd i actually slept at 1am... realli tired... stayed up till 12am to get my results... i'm realli glad and Thank God for the grace he has on me... i'm realli happy with my grades... it is as follow:

Software Engineering: A
Operating Systems: B
Digital Media n Interative design(DMID): B+
Principle Of Accounts: B+
Enterprise Application Development: B+
Enterprise Application Development Project: A

seriously i'm glad about this result cos it's the best out of my whole 4 semesters... i'm a little disappointed becos some of the modules i didn't meet my expectations... but got 1 which is more den wad i expected... i'm realli happy and glad overall lah... =)

seriously i have been realli wondering abt something for very very long... i have been having mixed feelings as of whether i wanna follow my own decision or to follow advices i received... i am realli blur lyke a sotong now... haix... i'm realli very confuse... but think i'm slowly getting my answer and i'm realli slowly getting on with life... some people may not appreciate me for who i am and also wont see me for who i am... so i have to learn to move on and take it in my stride... so i'm realli taking things more easily n getting on with my life le...

*to ray didi: pls dun be sad kaes... u have done realli well le so enjoy that moment and work harder as it's always better to have room for improvements.. isn't it... =)

i realli have tried my best!!!
i always hope for somewhere over the rainbow!!
but i didn't expect it to be Over It!!!
so i realli just Think!!!
and i'm gonna Let It Be!!!!

hey dudes and babes reading my blog... thanks for patronizing my blog... am glad i'm able to blog to let u all read... seriously i at a point wanted to give up blogging as i felt it was realli dumb and useless... but i realise that actually it's a way of allowing my true feelings to flow out... i realli think it's a good way...

why i am bloggin today is becos i find that i'm unhappy again... i noe it's AGAIN.... i realli dunno why... many of my close peeps told me to just forget it and dun think abt it anymore... but i dunno why i cant... mebbe cos i haven gotten the Final Verdict of the whole incident... i haven realli gotten an answer yet... that's why mebbe i'm so vexed... i dunno why but i feel VERY lonely as i dunno who i can tok to... i of cos got a few peeps i tok to always but i dun wanna burden them and make them think i always tok to them whenever i got probs.... that's not the case... i dun lyke to trouble peeps also...

i'm realli in a BIG dilema... i'm realli confuse on wad is going on in my life... i realli think i'm realli screwing up my everyday becos of my own indecisive character... i realli wanna make a decision but i always make 1 but it always doesn't work out the way i want it to... i am realli LOST... but i dunno who i can go to for directions and advice... i'm realli scared to become the problem of others and to be a burden for peeps...

peeps whom i have gone to are no longer available le bah... kor has his own gf and i dun lyke to burden kor with all my such stuffs... BRO also has his own gf now and i dun think it will be convenient for me to confide in him and bug him with my probs... and finally didi who is very busy and always has a hectic schedule... i realli dun wish to burden them le... i realli am very very lonely!!!!!!

every night i will sleep due to tiredness... not onli the physical tiredness of my attachment job but to the mental tiredness of thinking of "that".. i realli dunno wad i can do or who i can tok to... peeps may say that i'm Dumb and Stoopid... but this is just me... i realli cant do anything.... i'm realli at my WIT's END and thr's no one to share this load with...

mebbe it's destined that i'm suppose to be a loner all my life and to always be single and be a guy on my own... mebbe that's what is suppose to be of me bah...

You're asking me if my love will grow...
I Don't Know... I Don't Know!!!
You Stick Around To Make Sure...
I Don't Know... I Don't Know!!!

=my temper could be the result of wad happen...
there were sad times but wasn't thr happy times??
shouldn't we focus on the happy times rather then
the sad time??? =

hey everyone... i'm back to blogging... this would means 2 weeks out of my 12 weeks of IPP is already gone.. dunno should be happy or sad... happy as in during this time i can get to meet many new nice peeps lyke GORDON, LOUIS, ANNIE, LIONEL, YOUNG, MINGLEONG, JORDAN, CHRIS, SONY, TERRY, MAY and BILLY... these are just peeps who are close to me and i got to noe better... there's still many... and also i get to be always with someone close to me and it realli means a lot to me seriously... even though now things may not be looking good... but i hope it will change gradually...

this week that passed was realli very fast... FAST is the onli word i can realli use to describe... but this week is also very jialat cos many pple sick... it's literally MANY... it's so many that company gotta buy Redoxen and Vitamin C and packet orange juice with vitamin c for us... it's realli that serious... haha... i also kenna the flu bug and actually fell sick this whole week and i finally took MC on thursday and went to see doc... Stayed home and rest for the day... i wanna thank all those who send their regards to me when i'm sick lyke yanqi n justin... and also others lyke didi, esther and si hui who cared for me thru msn and call... i'm realli happy n glad to have such pple arnd....

den ystd went to work and many pple not arnd cos of convention, reservise and went back to own country... along my row only left my boss(sony), lao da(gordon), me and yanqi... it was so scary... thank god the new coms came in after lunch... during lunch me, yanqi, gordon and annie went to Vivocity to buy new fans for the staffs who come back on sat... was a fun and good sharing time... den went back and fix the fan... got a small cut though but not serious... den went to help carry the new coms... den get the coms into a room... den we actually pycho-ed lao da to go home cos he was sick... and he did... tat's good... den me n yanqi clone some coms but not much... and jordan actually brought the 2 of us to the MINI COOPER showroom to collect his stuffs that is not related to work... hehe... opps... den we went back to work and carried the coms back to our floor to safe-keep it for monday...

Today: went out with my parents as i told them i wanted to spend time with them... seriously after i started IPP... i haven been spending time with my family so today is the day... den we went to suntec and went to the food fair... this time has less pple den last yr... has quite some food thr... den went shopping... walk until so sian... and at 4.30... i had my early dinner at NEW YORK NEW YORK!!!! my suggestion... was quite nice and i enjoyed it... realli thanks to my parents that they nv deprive me of things they can give to me... THANKS DAD n MUM!!!!

i'm now currently very tired but i think my life will be better after this 12 weeks of IPP as it will realli prepare me for the working society... i'm realli glad where i am now...

many told me to give up...
but my heart is not going to...
i'm realli holding on by a thread....
hope to receive....
the verdict or ur true feelings....
SOON!!!!

finally 1 week is over for fypj n ipp.... really glad... but tmr the cycle will resume again...haix...damn sian....the motivation of mine is still far away... the motivation would be payday... haix... it's still 1 whole month away... i'm so sian abt it.... today woke up n feeling a bit unwell... mebbe it's fatigue bah... have been very tired this whole week.. so mebbe not feeling well due to that... den just went to get a haircut... it's generally quite short now... dunno why but just fel lyke cutting it short... so cut it short lorx... mebbe it is a sign to myself that if i decide on something i shld be decisive... shouldn't be wishy washy over it...

i still remember mummy telling me... to cherish the pple who are near me n around me rather den to hope for things or pple who i shouldn't have and cannot have... i think i'm slowly understanding it... mummy also told me that it's better to have someone who loves me for who i am rather den me changing to fit wad the person(s) wan(s) and gradually lose my personality and become someone i dunno who i am... i think it's very true... cos if realli this person lykes me... the person will lyke me for who i am and will be willing to accept my short-comings.. so i will continue to find that someone who is willing to accept me for who i am... may that person enter my life soon... okaes enuff of blabbering... i'm going off le... bye!!!

hi guys... here to blog... am not realli in the mood to blog... so ya i just change my blog song... to one of my always favourite... nv going to change... it speaks it loud.... i have been feeling disheartened always... dunno why... mebbe it's becos i sink myself into this s***... not to blame anyone but myself...

leave the sad things aside... i wanna introduce a wonderful singer named KATHARINE MCPHEE... yes, she will always be my American Idol... My current blog song is by her... wont say much... watch the videos below...

This song is called Love Story...


This song is over the rainbow...


And last but not least... her best single... OVER IT!!!!


it means alot to me....
as it realli feels so real...
so now... i think....
i may be **** **!!!

hey hey... i'm here to blog... i noe i have not been blogging for a few days... haha... i noe... it's onli 2 days... wahaha... today is my 2nd Day at DSTA(CMPB)... working under Accenture... haha... it's realli quite nice de bah...

yesterday was realli a nice day as in the morning... i went thr with yanqi and reach thr at 8.40am den went to the meeting room to wait and in that room including us was 10 other NYP-ians... wahaha... it was realli nice... den in the end... me, yq and 2 other EI students were sent to the same place... the two peeps are May n Billy... we got to noe each other very quickly and we were chatting n laughing all the way to DSTA... den at thr we actually got assigned to the wrong OIC... lol... den at the end of the day met esther n isaac for dinner... den me, yq n esther went to peninisular shopping centre to get a phone as yq need a no camera phone for work as i alr had... so no need to buy...

My department is called Techical Architecture... basically doing Technical support... was quite bored ystd... did nothing much ystd... The pple thr are my OIC = Sony, colleagues= Louis, Lionel, MingLeong, Gordan, Jordan, Young.... Sony actually made louis, lionel and mingleong to bring us to go for lunch.. wahaha...

today... did quite a few things... learn a few things before going for lunch... went lunch den came back to help with shifting 1 desktop n change the domain n re-install the domain... den help someone solve his prob with the com n i managed to solve it... yay!!! haha... den me n yanqi had to brainstorm abt some codes for the system they are asking us to come up with... tmr me n yanqi still got a meeting at 9... so tired... haha... think tat's all le bah... take kare everyone... byex!!! bleahx!!!

hi everyone... i noe i shld be sleeping cos tmr gotta wake up early to go to the company i'm attached to.. i'm actually seriously quite nervous now... dunno why... but i'm quite anxious abt it.... dunno why also... wahaha... hope i will be able to do well... i'm going to the company with yan qi.... we will both be doing this "proj" together... and at the same place(CMPB)... we'll also see pei xin thr... that brings back how on thursday and friday my SAP training... it was a little tedious cos i need to learn how to use SAP in 2 days.... it's not a simple task... haix... thursday was quite ok... generally can understand wad mr Ang and Rayden was teaching...

den on thursday after the training... yan qi accompany me home to get my stuffs to isaac's place for our class bbq... den we walk to his hse instead of bus cos the bus lyke very slow... wen we reach thr... it looks lyke it just started... so we all started to bbq and eat lorx... den we all bbq and eat den watch tv... den bbq and eat again... den after that... we played poker and eat watermelon n chips... it was rather amusing... wahahaha... den some of them watch The Guardian...

den some of us went to play twister... OMG... it was realli terrible after that... we played from 2am till 430am... it was realli madness... the teams are as follow: Sihui, Yanqi n Yiming... Brandon(kor), Me n Esther... Isaac, Ryan n Samuel... n last but not least... Yixian, Jianda and Samantha... it was realli crazyness of it sia... we play lyke a bunch of crazy peeps... wahaha... but it was realli FUN!!!.... the aftermath was realli DREADFUL.... our legs were so sore and pain that some of us almost fell down the stairs... opps... wahaha....

den i went to bath and arnd 5 plus i went to slp and woke up arnd 6 plus near 7... den wash up and pack and left isaac's place to go to school for my SAP training... it was also dreadful... the whole time i was very sleepy and tired... den i finally got my codings correctly... and me, yanqi, justin and pei xin presented it to mr ang b4 we're allowed to go home... i actually took a cab home cos i was damn tired.... slept almost the whole night....

saturday... went out with my mum, bro, sis n my small aunt... went to suntec n marina and got scared by Bro(eric)... so lame lah... den went shopping and got some stuffs... hehe... den veron came and meet us and den dad came after work... den we adjourned to the Padang Restaurant for my grand-father's birthday... the food was alright but was a little disappointed when the dessert was not "orh ni" and it was red bean soup with lotus seed... eeeewwww!!!

today... went out with my family and veron... and for my reader's info... veron is moi cousin... den we went out to orchard and walk arnd... hmmm... i also bought some stuffs... opps... wahaha... den ate and also shop... den finally adjourned home arnd 7plus... very tired now cos i just ironed my clothes for this week... hope tmr will turn out well... will upload photos when i'm free... take kare everyone... JIA YOU!!!! =)

a saying goes:
"time will heal wounds"
does it realli mean it
or it is a myth or saying onli...
i realli dunno!!!