=my Hates!!!=
`Lyres
`cheaTers
`irritAting ppLe
`hypocritEs
`pple who kup my calls
`pple with no manners
`pple who doesn't contributes and wait for free lunch
`pple who criticise but they themselves are WEAK and also USELESS!!!!!
=WISH-LIST=
`mOrE new cLoThEs
`Everlast jacket
`Fossil watch
`More top man jersey
`New lappie(Sony Vaio) `Samsung K3
`A special someONE
`New fitting jeans
`Leather Bag
`New Bed
`New Sony Ericsson Phone: C902
`A Special Ring
`New Shoes
`Havaianas slipper
`NUM party tank `berms from messy's short series `crocs hp holder[croc o dial] `billabong bag
arlow everyone... i'm here to blog again... wasn't in school ystd cos was sick... had bad headache with a bit of feeling giddy.... probably due to amt of stress bah...
today came back to school... decided to face all the things happily... but i dun think i can do it... i'm realli realli crumbling now... i'm realli falling apart liao.... too much stress ler..... from many things... i'm realli realli tired and exhausted..... i'm not sleeping well every night now... cos i'm realli bogged down by many many things... i realli think i'm going MAD already....
STRESS is reallii killing me... i realli am being torn apart... alot of things are happening to mi and arnd me... i'm realli realli thinking it's getting out of hand..... haiz.... i dun wanna tok to anyone abt everything cos.... i dun wanna burden anyone with my things.... i realli think i'm going to suffer a nervous breakdown lerhx.... alot of things are going thru my mind everyday... i'm realli going to go berserk.... haiz....
why cant i have someone by my side now... someone whom i can tok and nv find me a burden or bother... and why cant i have someone to share this time with?? probably i'm realli someone who doesn't deserve anyone bah.... i realli am hoping for THAT SOMEONE to come and share my life... cos i realli dun think i can hold the fort myself.... my fort is going to be torn down soon.... VERY SOON..... haiz... am i realli so loathesome... hmmmm......
okaes.... enuff of complaining and gibberish... shld start to do my work le.... take kare all.....
@kelkel signing off@ dunno when i will return to my old self.... =(
Time:
1:58 PM
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
arlow... here to blog again... hmmm... wad to say.... am realli disappointed sometimes... sometimes juz disappointed at pple who noe u... pple who noe u alot may not understand u the most... it's realli the scenario... it often this case... tat's why got misunderstanding.... realli dunno why.... why take things so seriously....
i juz wanna say that why pple must take things lyke that... sometimes wad pple say may not realli mean it... it's just a figure of speech.... den turns out it become something that is wrong... juz dun understand why... haiz... dun wanna say le... tired of it...
today... came to school and realise my com something happen... shall not say wad happen.... did give me a scare but i agar agar noe wad was wrong... and did the right thing to change it back... hmmm.... juz dunno why pple do that..... so fun to do such things meh???
lastly, i wanna thank God... he has been looking after my all these while... on sunday night i was still praying to God.... asking him for a job during my vacation.... den last night my uncle victor came to my hse... and he offered me a job for this vacation... i'm realli thankful cos God has been taking care of mi faithfully... realli muz feel thankful and grateful..... after all these while... he is still looking after mi... it's something i'm realli blessed with and it's a blessing.... =)
Time:
11:12 AM
Monday, July 28, 2008
hey... this is a video i like... it's one of my fav singer 楊宗緯 singing 你是我的眼... it's very nice... pls go listen....
Time:
10:10 AM
arlow everyone... i'm here to blog again... hmmm.... dunno wad i am going to say in this blog le... cos i'm realli tired of everything... juz dun wanna say abt anything le... so i'm not going to tok abt my probs...
HAPPY BDAE my KENNY!!!
[Friday: 25th July 2008] this day is my Accenture "lao da" (gordee) n jian da's bdae... in the morning... my n yq called lao da le.... wished him happy bdae on the phone... haha... den it was an ordinary day on friday...
at night went out with the class... met xun hang, kor with esther and jian da at YCK mrt... den we met kenny and samantha at bishan.... den we went to orchard and met the rest... so pple lyke: clement, yiming, xin xian, ryan, michelle... den we walked arnd while waiting for my shen(yixian).... den we went to seoul garden[taka branch] first to get the place... den my shen came abt a while later... den we eat n eat n eat... realli sinful.... den after finish eating we went to the atrium square of taka... den sihui was thr and she alr got the cake.... den we went out of the building and sing the bdae song... it was to celebrate jian da's bdae and kenny's early bdae... it was a nice time to spend time with my class pple...
Sat n Sun was quite boring... i juz stayed home... didn't wanna go out cos dun have much money to spend... hmmm..... realli dun wanna anyhow spend money le... den ystd when going for dinner... at my hse thr de dog training thr... i saw a VERY VERY CUTE dog... i really lyke this breed of dogs.... it's called POMERANIAN dog... *think i spelt correctly* it's a very cute and fluffy dog... and i lyke it sooo much... hehe...
=a pic below to show the breed of that dog...=
tats all... i dun feel lyke toking more le...
Time:
8:46 AM
Monday, July 21, 2008
dun realli have mood to blog nowadays... so will just leave a song that i feel is relevant... juz feel this song suitable for now...
arrggghhhhhh!!!!!! i'm not in the mood to do anything.... i'm now in school but it's onli physically... i'm damn damn NOT IN THE MOOD... i juz dunno how to get over the mood....
the past few days excluding last night was blissful... it was realli a time of happiness and peacefulness... but why did i gotta go and spoil the whole thing... why shld i be soooooooo stoopid.... probably i shouldn't have even did wad i did... it was pure dumbness!!!!!
I HATE U my sickness.... why must u happen on me.... why not anyone else but me!!!!!!! it's all becos of u that's why everything is happening... why must u happen inside me?????? u STOOPID sickness is all i NEVER wanted... why must u happen to me and ONLY ME...... if i didn't have u... i probably wont have this problem.... all becos of u.... this problem is now not able to rectify.... I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!! leave my body!!!!! i DUN WAN YOU!!!!!!!!!
why do this have to happen to me now.... why send me to heaven and then banish me to hell..... noe how HURTFUL this is..... it feels lyke being given life n now it's taken away.... it feels lyke my oxygen is taken away n i'm dying.... it's realli soooooooo painful and hard to bear..... realli hard to bear....
CURRENT MOOD: 100% down and depressed!!!!!!
Time:
8:22 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
hey hey everyone!!!! i'm back to blogging my this bloggie.... hehe... i'm blogging with a very very happy heart... there were some things that happent these few days... and i'm very very glad to say i'm super HAPPY it happen... haha... but dun think i going to share it.... it's my DIRTY LITTLE SECRET... wahahas...
this week was generally okaes... nothing much... was a little busy with proj work.... has a tok with miss yarny also... some things happen that may have brought me down.. but i'm back UP again... den some happy and some unhappy things happen... but i believe all happen for a reason...
den ystd: went to run after school... was realli surprised i had that will in me... i told myself i wanna run... so went to the park to run 2.4KM again... den this time i told myself to be faster den the other time... wahahaha... GUESS WAD... i made my running of 2.4km so hard on myself... i felt back-pain n also some gastric pain... so dumb... haha... BUT... i manage to run within 13 mins and 44 seconds!!! i gave myself the targer of 13 mins n 55 seconds... but i made it 11 seconds den my target... wahahaha... i'm realli glad and happy with myself...
den today.... something happen also... was a little wierd but i realli was happy... realli hope wad i want can come pretty soon... hehe... den my neighbour : suzy n her hubby lewis came over... their baby has just reach a full month... so came n gave the full-month gift... so nice... the pic is below... den went to cut my hair just now... now have a new hair-cut... i sent an mms to someone n that someone say it's cute... and nice... wahahaha... so i'm very glad... so now let the photos tok... hehe...
My running time of 13 mins 44 sec....
My new hair cut...
Cam-whoring pic #1...
Cam-whoring pic #2....
The full-month gift.... NICE RIGHT!!!
Time:
8:16 PM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
arlow everyone.... dunno if there is still readers of my blog... haha... if there is, pls tag after u read kaes... thanks a lot...
hmmm... lots of things have happened... ystd, didn't come to sch cos not feeling well... had a gastric attack and a little fever... wasnt realli a good day also... didn't have much rest cos was realli uncomfortable... but it was a day of rest though...
hmmm.... i have not been sleeping well recently... dunno why leh... everytime wanna slp but cant slp... kept having so many thots going thru my mind... dunno why but they come at their own will... i cant control it and stop it... so it keep bugging me n i cant sleep in result of it... thus, i have not been in the best state of myself... life have been kind of dull nowadays... have been looking for some kind of goal but seems to be none... dunno why leh... my life seems soooooo lost....
kept thinking of things that aren't practical... haha... mebbe i realli miss ur presence in my life... it's been a while le since u last contact me... probably with u arnd i would not been so lost... at least with someone i can tok to and get advice... realli realli hate ur absence.... hope u can come back soon....
nowadays keep feeling very down... dunno why... just dun have the energy to be high again... just tired bah i hope... probably no aim so feel abit sian... probably it's becos my life is missing something bah... i dunno wad it is... hope that emptiness can be filled up soon... cos my life is realli so empty and lacking something... just hope it can be back to the same way...
hmm.... i'm going to make one of my resolution work... that is to lose weight... yes it's lose weight... i have been pushing it off for a long time... think this is the time i shld make it work now... so i think i'm going to put in all my effort le... so this time i'm going to work hard to fufil it... hopefully i can.... support me kaes!!!!
just feel lyke posting a song lyrics... so the song is MY DESTINY by my fav. Ms Katharine Mcphee...
My Destiny I have always dreamed of this I'll admit that there was something I missed Wonderin' if it is for real Every mistake, every wrong turn Every time I lost my way Led me to this, moment of bliss, tonight
[CHORUS:] With you, finally I can break free With you, I saw a changing in my destiny Dream come true, it's so funny now that I see How different life turned out to be
You were always by my side That you believed in me was enough reason why I didn't stop, didn't give up Even if I sometimes lost hope I did my best, and I am blessedIn life
[CHORUS:] With you, finally I can break free With you, I saw a changing in my destiny Dream come true, it's so funny now that I see How different life turned to be
Can I get any higher Tell me, does it get any stronger? I owe it to you, that I made it through I never could've done it, without you
[CHORUS:] With you, I can break free, yeah With you, I saw a changing in my destiny Dream come true, it's so funny now that I see How different life turned out to be Oh, cause of you, I saw a changing in my destiny Dream come true, it's so funny now that I see How different life turned out to be I've realized that it's my destiny
below is a slideshow i made of my malaysia trip with may, didi(jus) n xueli...
Time:
8:21 AM
Monday, July 14, 2008
hi everyone... i'm here to blog... went to slack the whole morning... felt a little guilty but dun care le... haha... think i'm realli a bad bad person... probably my natural character is lyke that ba... i'm not a good person... wahahaha....
today many things happen... realli realli unexpected... but life is lyke that... life is full of ups n downs... i realli realli fully understand this sentence... now i'm realli realli feeling wierd... cos i am now lyke in the middle...
feeling happy n sad at the same time... sad becos i noe it's not getting me anywhere... but happy cos i'll be giving happiness to someone... cos w/o that issue... that person will be happy... so with the decision i make... i'm glad i made it... i'm going to make the decision work... cos i'm going to honour my promise... i must mean wad i say.... so yupz....
now am a little worried... cos i'm going to find miss yarny to tok... hopefully i can find a different kind of enlightenment... i'm realli hoping for that... hopefully that will help me to divert my attention.... and help me get over all these things...
i dun wanna lose you.... so i'm going to make the best decision... and it will be something i hope i wont regret...
how do i describe myself: 1. dumb 2. rash 3. probably stoopid 4. LOW EQ
Time:
1:48 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
hey everyone... i'm back!!!! haha... just wanna blog abt some things... have not had a good week... but still generally okaes bah.... this week was generally not good... many things happen... and i also dunno if i did things correctly...
i am not sure if wad i did was to my advantage.. or did it turn out to be my disadvantage... i have NO idea... hmmmm....
let's dun tok abt weekdays... let tok abt weekends...
Ystd: 12 July 2008
woke up as usual in the morning... was so sian den went online... wasn't feeling very right... so wanted to tok to didi n some pple... but none of them answered my call... so nvm... den kept praying for MAY's thingy to work out... and it did... THANK GOD!!!!! as i said: MIRACLES happen to pple who BELIEVE in it... so i'm going to do so too...
den received may's sms telling me everything worked out well.. i was sooo soooo glad for her... CONGRATS may... but at the same time i wasnt realli in the right mood... cos my mind was not listening to me... kept thinking abt things that i told it not to think abt... and that caused my mood to be damn low n start to affect my sat... so sian sia... den arnd 2 plus... had the urge to do run... and i told myself i must go run.... and turns out i ran not becos i wanted but for another reason... was quite silly but i realli thot it was worth it... den i went to the park near my hse... and i ran 2.4km... and guess wad... i ran and walked it in 14 minutes 3 seconds.... realli OMG!!! i nv expected myself to do that... it can be counted my best timing as i'm not a person to run so fast... it is due to that special reason thats why i ran with all my might... i'm quite surprised at myself... hmmmm....
den came home and bathed... wasn't in the right mood still... so called parents and told them i wanna go parkway alone... den they say they are going thr in the evening den meet me lorx.. i said okaes and went alone... quite a few things went thru my head... realli quite low and sad... den wanted to buy some things but dun realli got money to anyhow spend... so in the end ask my parents to get for me... wad i bought is mostly wad my parents think is necessary... so in the end went to dinner at jack's place with parents.. and went to book grand-ma's bdae dinner at the restaurant...
today: 13 July 2008
woke up and get ready... left hse at 11 plus... den went out with my parents n my younger brother... den went to chinatown thr and check some things... den wrongly took bus to raffles place.. den took mrt to cityhall and ate lunch... den we went to the citylink mall... den i went to NUM n saw my BRO(eric)... so happy to see him sia... den toked to him for quite some time... after chatting with him realli make me feels soo happy... den went to meet my parents...
den bought some things... den kept walking and shopping... den went to marina square... den suntec... den came home...
these two days... although went out lyke so happy... but my inner feeling is damn confused... and also i feel sooooo blur... i dunno wad to do... but hope wad i'm going to do will not be wrong... i realli am taking a big step le...
*HOPE YOU CAN SEE MY EFFORT!!!!*
::photo of my running timing!!!::
:: it's realli 14 mins n 3 seconds::
Time:
9:19 PM
Thursday, July 10, 2008
hmmm... i'm here to blog my second post... just wanna blog abt some things... life hasn't been a bed of roses recently... it has realli been quite tough... cos got a lot of things happen... some of the things are suppose to happen... but some are unexpected.. mebbe becos it's unexpected... tat's why it is affecting me quite a bit...
i'm realli realli just tired bah... but i'm going to be stronger... i believe i will be stronger... i noe all things happen for a reason... i realli think if it's mine... it will be mine in the end... so i will wait and fight till the end... =P bleahs...
just song parts of some song... i wanna write... that signifies my feelings...
Ti amo Te Quiero 每一天都要爱上你 想着你 沉入梦境 一张眼 一清醒 第一个想到又是你
i think these 3 songs are realli meaningful... i think they mean diff things in wad i'm experiencing... haha...
Time:
7:55 PM
this is a late post... this post is abt last friday which is daphne's bdae... we had a small celebration for her... so below are the photos...
:: The birthday girl::
:: May, Xueli n Yanqi::
:: mE, Didi(jus) n yanqi::
:: mE cam-whoring::
::Didi, may, yanqi n mE::
::Didi, yanqi, may n mE::
:: the photo i asked for -> May n Xueli::
::the interns n jia hui::
::mE, Didi, may n yanqi::
Time:
2:36 PM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
hi i'm here to blog again... today i'm here with a happy heart... current mood: Happy n confident... after willowing in my own sorrow... i'm finally out of it... i've think alot and i've gotten enlightened... so now i'm going to work harder... no problem is too difficult to be solved...
i'm going to work harder to solve all the problems... i believe wad happen on monday was realli GOOD... wad tat someone said to me make me realli motivated... i'm going to work harder to show u that i can do my work...
for the personal problem i have... i'm going to let it go... probably i was holding it too close... thus the string almost broke... now i'm learning to fly it lyke a kite... i'm going to let it go and fly... if it's meant to be my kite... it will fly back to my side... and i believe it very strongly...
now i'm more motivated by everything... lyke wad everyone is always saying... EVERYTHING happens for a reason... and so........ I'M GOING TO WORK HARDER TO OVERCOME!!!!!!!!!!! i'm an overcomer... haha... i believe i'm strong enuff to overcome it... =)
